Husbands And the little things they do

As we lay in bed, sometimes I stare up at him wondering what it is that draws me to this man. What makes me stay when i want to go? How come I want to be near him always? hmm these are concepts I'm JUST getting used to...because you see *stands up* I AM A RUNNER! There I've said it, when something goes wrong in a relationship and I'm not satisfied well I pick and and RUN! Change my number, change my email delete them off my facebook etc. But this time I want to stay for the good and for the bad! How strange I thought....so i began to analyze him, study his very being. And i have came to this conclusion

I love him. I love the fact that hes more of a man than any other man I have ever came into contact with. Hes smart, Funny, a GREAt cook, Responsible, caring, trust worthy, Cuddly, he has soft skin, hes a take charge kinda man, he cares whether or not I've gone to the dentist in the last 6 months, everything i want in a man and then some. So why is it that sometimes I want to.. WANT to get away? So I studied him again, and again I came to a conclusion....

That even though hes amazingly perfect for me in almost every way that still we have soo many differences. He still believes the world is flat and I don't care if i sail right off as long as I tried. He wants to keep the home we live in because its a 2 million dollar home and I want to buy a cheap one on the big island that's worth a 1/8 of the price because it has more land and its only 5 years old instead of a hundred....I want 1 or 2 children and he wants 3 or 4. I think that our female children should be treated the same as our male children and he thinks that a boy cant get pregnant so somehow that entitles him to more freedom. He thinks that guys and girls cant be friends without somefeelings being involved and I think We are not animals and that I am certainly not attracted to every Tom Dick and Harry that comes along. He is a Townie at heart and I am a country girl always have been. He is Buddhist and I am Christian. So there is a difference between compromise and tailoring your morals to fit someones needs.

So I began thinking and thinking how do i get things to work? How do I make our differences something we can deal with? How do I get the fighting, screaming and crying to stop.  I guess the only thing I can do is pick my battles....I wont fight over falling into the toilet if I can choose what movie we watch tonight. We will have 2 children instead of 1 or 3. When he drives me nuts I'm going to take a shower or take a walk(could use the exercise anyways) We already agreed to keep the house until its paid off then sell it for what its worth once we are done Renovating and buy that beautiful blue house on a 1 acre piece of land right next door to my mother and start a life together. One that we both can enjoy.  =D

When I agreed to marry him I knew we had many differences most of which could not be changed, cured or adjusted. What could not be altered you ask? Well for one he is 20 years older than me....I can never fix or adjust that. It is something i have learned to accept since i just cant imagine my life without him in it. But then i see peoples expressions when i tell them how old he is and people look down at me like I'm trash because my bf isn't my age and it doesn't seem normal and it makes me hurt and sad and confused, confused on whether or not I'm doing the right thing staying with him. Then i get sick and he takes care of me like I am the love of his life and I remember its all going to be worth it and i realise that in the end I will not regret our life together

*raises glass* So heres to praying its going to work out

How can you take a quiz and Find your true love? Human beings are soo silly sometimes. Now we think we have even mastered the thing called love? I don't think you can take a test and find someone you belong with when a lot of times your not sure what you want. You can say I want someone smarter than me, but come to find out you don't like being corrected all the time or you just don't like someone smarter than you. These things never work out as plan. People like to think theres some Ryme or reason for everything and that theres a pattern to the madness but there isnt you have just been watching a Beautiful Mind again!

Well here I go ranting :P thanks for reading